Life Colorless...

Its been a more than 3 months of my stay in IIM K... life here is good, but still am not able to get on grasps with it... still have the feeling of being lost or left out... there are so many of things happening out here but I dont know what to do where to talk... life somtimes becomes so difficult that I am not able to breathe also... Its been a long time since I had last blogged but today to be very honest, I just wanted to pour out my frustrations and everything that was inside me and was burning me to hell... in past few months I have completely lost out myself and thats making me more and more isolated in this world... earlier life was a bit better but here I am just a lonely soul... the best part there are many people in my life and still I have no one to share my heart with.. as those who matter dont have time for me... Never knew that life could be so bad everytime I think about it.. its like that nothing could be worse than this but the more I think so.. the bigger is the surprise for me. Its like don't underestimate me I can turn from bad to ugly in jiffy...
You know I just want to pour out everything but cant do that, I dont know whats pulling me back.. but whatever it is I just dont want to be suffocated... its heart wrenching... there are so many colors of life.. but why are they far from me... well still life goes on... be it lonely or be it sad.. be it worse or be it bad.. at the end its my life... its what I have...