Life and me...

I don't know why first of all I came here to write something. I know that I started of in a negative tone but can't help it... it look so bleak that am completely lost... Words are failing me, I want to express myself but am not able to... For past couple of days I have lost myself, my life's in turmoil, everything is going in the wrong direction.... I had my Nitie gdpi's but due to my health wasn't able to attend that... at my company I am without any project.... am having fights with my friends and here I am don't know what am I doing here.... I want to leave all this and be calm and peaceful but thats the thing I lack in my life.... My health is always too good for me... have got a terrible headache at this moment but still don't want to rest as though..... Feeling so alone... all so alone that sometimes I think what my life is meant for... I am not able to understand anyone nor anyone wants to understand me.... people become my friend and then when I need their friendship I am all alone... all alone to fight with myself... my own self.. that self that has got no meaning for others... and day by day its losing its meaning for me...
My life has become such a dull spot that it sucks.... all I want is some peace but thats the thing that eludes me... I feel like crying but now even tears fail me... As I myself am a big loser in many ways... people have someone when they are in need of a friend or support and here I am standing all alone.. all alone in this world... with no one when I need some help... when I need someone on whose shoulder I could keep my head and cry.... with whom I can talk my heart out but alas.. life my life has got no such luxury.... whenever it needs someone desperately everyone's busy or having his/her own problems... Am I not a human being who need someone one... or its just that am too good to get any support.... Don't know... well am still having a fantastic headache... and am not able to write anymore..... anymore.... anymore......