Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Don't know the feeling...

It has been quite a while that I have blogged..... blame it on my schedule or lack of resources or my own personal lack of will to do so. For past two weeks am hanging in the midst of feeling happy as well as sad... or rather I must say alone.... The feeling comes n goes always keeping me in the middle of the road ... the road that leads to nowhere or rather everywhere. Things are moving around me... but still everything is at standstill,,,,, it looks like that I have stopped living. People around me are good... but still there is a feeling of emptiness..... it all looks to artificial... am just looking for natural happiness. Only one thought comes to my mind.... What I wanted and what hae i got.... I never came for this here... that I have got.... Even at this moment I am sitting in my class and after quie a lot of days I got to access net.... was happy to get the access but now am feelin all drained out.... dont knw why. Yesterday, I had been to my hometown for my brothers wedding, was all happy n jovial there. Everyone was smiling but still something was missing. Well.... let me say something else..... My life is in turmoil.... looks like am losing my friends.... friends close to my heart...but then thats life.... like... What has come has to go.... Nothing is yours..... the time well spent is life lived...... rest what u did not get was never yours..... Sometimes these words look too good... but sometimes they make your heart bleed.... the blood comes through the eyes.... the eyes are closed ... closed to the heart.... I don't know myself.....
Neither my end nor my start......
What is said is said is done.....
I don't remember if I am someone....
I want to live, live a life beautiful...
I want to rest n b peaceful....
Peace is my motive and peace is my aim....
Peace is all I want, N thats y I came....

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

n u din tell ur frnz about ne thing... :| nice !!!!

tc...
u know who !

venuss66 said...

Touchy.