Don't know the feeling...

It has been quite a while that I have blogged..... blame it on my schedule or lack of resources or my own personal lack of will to do so. For past two weeks am hanging in the midst of feeling happy as well as sad... or rather I must say alone.... The feeling comes n goes always keeping me in the middle of the road ... the road that leads to nowhere or rather everywhere. Things are moving around me... but still everything is at standstill,,,,, it looks like that I have stopped living. People around me are good... but still there is a feeling of emptiness..... it all looks to artificial... am just looking for natural happiness. Only one thought comes to my mind.... What I wanted and what hae i got.... I never came for this here... that I have got.... Even at this moment I am sitting in my class and after quie a lot of days I got to access net.... was happy to get the access but now am feelin all drained out.... dont knw why. Yesterday, I had been to my hometown for my brothers wedding, was all happy n jovial there. Everyone was smiling but still something was missing. Well.... let me say something else..... My life is in turmoil.... looks like am losing my friends.... friends close to my heart...but then thats life.... like... What has come has to go.... Nothing is yours..... the time well spent is life lived...... rest what u did not get was never yours..... Sometimes these words look too good... but sometimes they make your heart bleed.... the blood comes through the eyes.... the eyes are closed ... closed to the heart.... I don't know myself.....

Neither my end nor my start......

What is said is said is done.....

I don't remember if I am someone....

I want to live, live a life beautiful...

I want to rest n b peaceful....

Peace is my motive and peace is my aim....

Peace is all I want, N thats y I came....

Just like that...

Ha!!! phew... it had been quite a hectic week for me.... for the whole of the week I did nothing and still I was very busy.... I didn't have time for anything pata nahin kya hau tha par bahut kaam tha :D

Well today also was inline with my busy week... woke up at 7.30... got out of bed at 8.44 , as on sundays I have to give my mock cats.... was trying to get out of the feeling that today I dont want to give the exam...spent 15mins in that :D ... uske baad my friend came at my place (as both of us go together)... I as usual was still not ready and my friend has got no problems with that till the time he surfs on net :P

9.40 ... we left my place...
9.45 we reached the test centre....
9.50 searching for a hall to write the test....
9.58 still searching...
10.02 both of us got our seats...
Test can begin now at any moment... :O

10.15 Still test about to begin... till the time we chatted and prayed (Hey Bhagwan is baar acche number dila dena agli baar padhke aaunga ;))

10.20 Now bored as no good face to look in the class :D
10.21 We were given the OMR's
10.25 At last the test begins.....

Holy god whats this!!!! 225 ques ??????????????
Is this paper meant for 5 hrs or 2.5 hrs....
Time 2.5hrs... :(
Chalo ab paper chalo kiya.... kuch samajh nahin aaya to best thing go to the verbal and reading section and do timepass....

12.55 Test over and OMR's handed back to the invigilator....
1.00 Out of the classroom... into the dank corridor...
1.15 chatting with frnds....

1.30 back at home... my friend leaves for his home... today both of us are not in the mood to check our papers, so best left undone....

Ab phir kya tha lunch liya aur then Dad ke saath went for some shopping kuch meri aur kuch gharwaalon ki....
Went to the market and bought the things... a hell lot of my valuable time is consumed.... par theek hai ghar waalon ke liye inna sacrifice kar diya...
Well bought for myself two formal shirts and two trousers :D (kaafi acchi feeling aa rahi thi uske baad... like time well spent)

4.45 Got down at DreamLand saloon ;) for a haircut.... slept for a min or two while the barbar was clearing the top of my head :P

5.15 Uske baad ghar aake had a bath and then started to pack suitcase for my father as he was going out station....
So till 8.00 kuch kuch kaam chalo tha....
then had my supper and watched TV... talked with my sister...

At 9.00 went to station to see off dad....
9.20 again bak to home....
9.40 blog updated with the poem....
and then writing this post.....

Will try to sleep early today as have got a class tomorrow at 6.00 in the morning.... (God bless me...)

Chalo ab main jaata hoon....
bbye...
Good night
Manish :)

A wonderfool day...

Kaafi dino se soch raha tha ki roz mein jaldi uthunga par har baar ki tarha aaj bhi mein late utha. Raat ko jaldi sone ka socho to aur bhi der ho jaati hai, to ab aap he batao mein subah jaldi kaise uth sakta hoon.Bas am still tryin to get this task done. Today I woke up at 6:41 but then how could Manish get up at this time No... this is not right, so I had to sleep for some more time and then I got up. As usual had got nothnin much to do... so just picked up the cell and gave my frnds a msd call ( well well thats my usual routine) Time : 8.15

So my day has now begun. Abhi kuch khas nahi kiya hai, kuch karne ko bhi nahin hai... So started doing my morning abultions, after that talked with my frnd for 10mins and again was sittin idle. So thought to write my stupid and boring morning routine. Bas abhi inna he... if something interesting crops up i'll let u knw about it. Till then you all have a great time and I too will hav a great time ;)

Take care n Have a nice day...

Something new...

The past few days have been a hell lot of boring for me. I was in exploring the great depths of laziness and god knows what I was thinkin. So then I thought that I shud start another blog and lo here's am with it. Actually I had started two blogs with wordpress but its style did not suit me, bas phir kya apan ne kaha ki yaar blogger rocks and bana daala ispe naya blog. This was done so that now my old blog will contain poems while all the rest of the matter will b in this blog. So, am now ready to start posting and making your life hell with my ultimate sense of humour ( kuch log isse PJ's bhi kehete hai, par ab heera to johri he pehechanta hai na ;) ).Thats all for my intro and first post....

Tc N Hope to C ya soon....
Yours and Mine ;)
Manish

P.s. Ab kya bataun, bahut choti post lag rahi thi to ek pic bhi daal di :D