Has everything come to a Halt...

Its been a long time since I have been here... Lots have changed since then... once cheerful and happy Manish is lost... have been trying to search him for long but cannot find him... For past couple of months I have been trying real hard to come to terms to myself but alas, all the effort goes in vain... Have completely lost myself... once upon a time, I used to love bloggin, but as times change, the art of writing left me... It used to be so much of fun to jot down my thoughts, so relaxing and refreshing.. but with the passage of time... I have completely lost myself... It really looks like that everything has come to an halt...
Got to make the things moving...
God bless each one of us..

In search..
Manish

Can't write...

Zindagi kaisi hai paheli...

Order...

Order is what that has evaded me for quite a long time... Its the one thing that I must say is quite difficult for me to have in practical life... my whole life is inordered... my time is scattered (now now don't think too much bout how time is scattered.. ;) ), my life is scattered.. and even sometimes my hair is disordered ;)
How much you like to take life on the way you like.. and how much life listens to you depends upon your relationship with life. I may be a carefree bird but deep inside I am too much insecure... I may be living two lives in a single lifespan... I did have a ordered life.. but inside I am scattered... Its the level of truth between me and my life that makes things to be iin order or not... What lies beneath me has to be ordered.. all the physical things cease to be ordered... when mentally you are inordered... when you are in a turmoil... all the surroundings cease to exist... I may say order has evaded me for long... but for me my surroundings are pleasant and happy...

Confused and conflicting life...

Life has moved a lot since the last time I had jotted down something here... Had been a bumpy ride during the period. Few nice things, few ugly things.... kuch bhi samajh nahi aa raha tha ki lif emein chal kya raha hai.... shayad the fight was within me and I dont think it still has yet subsided... but haan ab phir bhi kaafi thek hai.. atleast am at more peace compared to last time..
abhi shayad apne aap ko poora express nahi kar paun.. but yup will do tht later on.. bbye tc..

Is it too slow or is it too fast...

For quite a few days I was in the dilemma for last few weeks, so as to where my life was leading me... there was no clarity to be seen any where. I was completely lost... but now the haze looks like moving over and a picture emerging from it... though i may not be as bright as ppl say but yup.. somethings are here to stay.. I knw now what I have to do... few things can make you or break you.. .there were things that broke me.. now its the time for the making to b done....
so ppl watcha here come a new dawn.. a new day... that will mark the beginning of a new career for me... may god bless me in my endeavour....
take care ppl
bbye
urs
Manish

January gone...

Life is going on slow pace. January has gone and still no clue to what is goin on. I have left mannier things behind but still clinging to them. Lifes tryin to take a full circle but its not able to do..
What is goin around not able to make a head or tail of it. But its happening to make it happen. Trying to clear a lot of cowebs but still lot to do....
lets see where it takes me and what will I do....