Sunday, December 07, 2008

Has everything come to a Halt...

Its been a long time since I have been here... Lots have changed since then... once cheerful and happy Manish is lost... have been trying to search him for long but cannot find him... For past couple of months I have been trying real hard to come to terms to myself but alas, all the effort goes in vain... Have completely lost myself... once upon a time, I used to love bloggin, but as times change, the art of writing left me... It used to be so much of fun to jot down my thoughts, so relaxing and refreshing.. but with the passage of time... I have completely lost myself... It really looks like that everything has come to an halt...
Got to make the things moving...
God bless each one of us..

In search..
Manish

Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Can't write...

Zindagi kaisi hai paheli...

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

Order...

Order is what that has evaded me for quite a long time... Its the one thing that I must say is quite difficult for me to have in practical life... my whole life is inordered... my time is scattered (now now don't think too much bout how time is scattered.. ;) ), my life is scattered.. and even sometimes my hair is disordered ;)
How much you like to take life on the way you like.. and how much life listens to you depends upon your relationship with life. I may be a carefree bird but deep inside I am too much insecure... I may be living two lives in a single lifespan... I did have a ordered life.. but inside I am scattered... Its the level of truth between me and my life that makes things to be iin order or not... What lies beneath me has to be ordered.. all the physical things cease to be ordered... when mentally you are inordered... when you are in a turmoil... all the surroundings cease to exist... I may say order has evaded me for long... but for me my surroundings are pleasant and happy...

Tuesday, May 27, 2008

Confused and conflicting life...

Life has moved a lot since the last time I had jotted down something here... Had been a bumpy ride during the period. Few nice things, few ugly things.... kuch bhi samajh nahi aa raha tha ki lif emein chal kya raha hai.... shayad the fight was within me and I dont think it still has yet subsided... but haan ab phir bhi kaafi thek hai.. atleast am at more peace compared to last time..
abhi shayad apne aap ko poora express nahi kar paun.. but yup will do tht later on.. bbye tc..

Monday, February 25, 2008

Is it too slow or is it too fast...

For quite a few days I was in the dilemma for last few weeks, so as to where my life was leading me... there was no clarity to be seen any where. I was completely lost... but now the haze looks like moving over and a picture emerging from it... though i may not be as bright as ppl say but yup.. somethings are here to stay.. I knw now what I have to do... few things can make you or break you.. .there were things that broke me.. now its the time for the making to b done....
so ppl watcha here come a new dawn.. a new day... that will mark the beginning of a new career for me... may god bless me in my endeavour....
take care ppl
bbye
urs
Manish

Thursday, January 31, 2008

January gone...

Life is going on slow pace. January has gone and still no clue to what is goin on. I have left mannier things behind but still clinging to them. Lifes tryin to take a full circle but its not able to do..
What is goin around not able to make a head or tail of it. But its happening to make it happen. Trying to clear a lot of cowebs but still lot to do....
lets see where it takes me and what will I do....

Friday, December 28, 2007

Happy New Year 2008...

WELCOME 2008...

A year thats gone by, leaving memories here abound. Many a things had happened over time, now the times past nine. With so much to say and so little a space. All that remains are the feelings true and false. We all will welcome the new year with a new passionate and refreshed mind. Lets make a true effort to make this world a better place to live in... :)

Manish

Sunday, November 18, 2007

Over with everything...

Life's not as easy as it seems to be. From the onset of it, there are various problems facing life. Whatever you tend to think and do, it never happens in the way you want it to be... same's the case with my life...
Again today have failed miserably. Am i so incompetent that I cant do anything in life thats worthwhile... Because I dont believe in stars... are just the mark of fate... and fate is that what you have created yourself. So, in the end its you are to blamed and no one else. You only share the responsibility for getting the things wrong and failing in life. You are the one responsible in life for all the faith lost by people who trusted you in the first place. You are the crime and the culprit.
People say that its not your mistake but I know its all my mistake... either I did not put in my full efforts or was it my low determination that made me reach the nadir of failure. I am not a good person either, because the one who breaks the faith people have in him is not a good person. I broke everyone's faith by fairing badly in the exam. Now I realise why I have been a highly inconspicous person because I am a big failure. I cant do anything in life thats sure...
People say that sometimes things would lead you into depression but I say seeing me depression would be depressed.... hahahaha....
well have written a lot of crap..
bbye
tc

Thursday, August 30, 2007

Time and life...



Time just flies as they say. By the time we are able to understand our current surroundings, we are already through that part and again we find ourselves into new environment. Time keeps on changing at such a fast pace that our current pace is thus a snail in comparison to the time's pace. Just like - we experience, I experience - that, it always looks like: our good times are short as compared to our hard time. But do we ever think what makes us feels so, well never have we thought the reason for this feeling.

When we are happy and in a jolly mood, we usually fail to see how fast the time is passing by, we are in such a state that it looks like that time has stood still. How many time do we ever look at the watch and say, "Oh! Its already 2 days, whereas it looks like just two hours". Its a human phenomenon that, we take in wht we like while we leave the rest. So, when we are having a gala time we don't notice the duration, we just want to enjoy that part of our life, irrespective of the duration, because though the duration maybe days, weeks, years or seconds; they always look like a moment that was too short.

When we are facing hard times, we always look back and say "Oh my! When is my time gonna change....". In this context though we are facing hardship for a smaller period, but our restlessness makes even that duration too long. And during that phase our cribbling and groaning makes the things worse. Everything in this world has got two sides and even those two sides are relative. there si nothing absolute in this world not even time, so why regret over things be it good and bad.

Just live life in the most beautiful way as it seems to you, without having any negative influence on your environment and take the reins of time in your hand. As, I say :

" Don't let the times test you, You test the time"

Monday, July 09, 2007

hii....

"The world says writing is the best method to express yourself, I say writing from heart as the best form of writing, As then you heart says and people listen... "

Things all around me are going in the rather same fashion for past few weeks. There has been nothing exciting event going around the place. Last weekend I had been to my home, I had a good time there. But as usual things keep on changing, nothing is constant, so am back here in my office and trying to work ;)
I usually try to update or write something here earlier when I as at home or at some palce where I had peace and thoughts came to me freely but today I just had the feeling to write something and that was going to be something written here. Its now advent of monsoons in India, and really I get sometimes fed up with all rains and the puddle it creates. There is such a lot of water logging in gurgaon, that you cant really go anywhere. Its such a mess out here. Well, well... reat nothing more to write... now that I really dont have anything to put down, so will put down something interesting later on....
till then take care
bbye
Manish